For many years since my first-ever 100(+)-mile finish in 2017, I yearned to enter another multi-day race, except this time, rather than stopping at a targeted distance, going until the end; in case I did so, I consistently raced once or twice monthly to stay ready. I hoped to travel to Korea to reunite with family to conclude 2023, but due to the preposterous flight cost, I postponed the trip, leaving this time that would inevitably be filled with loneliness open. After countless prayers and back-and-forths, convinced there would be no better time, I registered for a 48-hour event at Aravaipa Running’s Across the Years, starting on December 28, 2023, in Phoenix, Arizona. Shortly after, a faith mentor I had been unable to get ahold of reached out to me, and I gave him a call, who prayed over this race with me and boosted my confidence that I did not inadvertently disobey God in an attempt to gratify my earthly desire. I had never been so nervous and stressed leading up to a race, understanding full well based on experience the hours and hours of pain cave that awaited me; consequently, I managed 30 minutes of sleep the night before, 10 hours in the three days prior. At first irritated, I quickly changed the perspective that achieving my objective in spite of this disadvantage would only add to my testimony of God’s protection.
Early on! PC: Aravaipa Running
Around 80 miles in? PC: Aravaipa Running
For a race this long, I needed to break down the giant into small stages, the first of which being lightly running the first 10 miles without walking. I did so mostly for the first half marathon, after which I forced myself to incorporate walking. Going around a ~1.41-mile loop, switching directions every four hours, runners often run into each other and share stories of their whys, and as I told some, I may have been the only person without an awe-inspiring story. Still early on, I was connected to a young jolly lady participating in the 72-hour event with whom I covered likely nearly twenty miles, and knowing that she could have gone faster without me, I both thanked and apologized to her, to which she replied she finds joy in helping others, even if that affects her own performance. (Spoiler alert: She achieved a huge personal best anyway.) I felt an initial sign of hurt and fatigue around 40 miles, but speaking to her took my mind off the discomfort. I could feel the blisters form and pop on my feet and my toenails dance, but I ignored them as long as they did not become debilitating. Following the completion of lap 36, 50.7 miles, I took my first sitting break of 15-20 minutes in the resting tent. When I stood back up and went outside in the dark, I experienced arguably the scariest moment of my life. With zero anticipation, my body went into shock and violently shook uncontrollably, freezing my facial expression while drawing a weird noise, and I sprinted across to the aid station tent to take shelter, where I continued to shiver. Considering I burned 16,010 calories and realistically consumed less than 1,000 in return, this should not have been a surprise. “What is happening to me?” I panicked to a volunteer who was visibly alarmed and warned me I had to drink hot water and put on all of the clothes that I brought. When I stepped back outside, the shaking remained, so I returned and patiently drank multiple cups of hot water, after which, despite the sore legs, I ran out as fast as I could for my body to rapidly produce heat. Upon arriving at my rented tent on the other side, I put on an additional pair of pants as well as a shirt and a hoody under the jacket I was already wearing, covering most of my face. The symptom chilled out, and I was so grateful to be able to continue that I forgot about pain for the next ten miles. I repeatedly thanked and praised God for saving me and told Him what a testimony this would be if I could reach my goal. Throughout the remainder of the race, I had to be kept bundled up in the presence of the minutest cold air, as any wind that touched my face would make me tremble; had I not brought a hoody, really for my plane ride, or had a way of covering my neck and face, I do not know how I could have carried on.
Sent this to my parents about an hour before the start.
Sent this to my parents after I concluded my race.
Around 70 miles, my legs gave out, and I was no longer able to even walk at a semi-regular pace. Because I knew how much I had slowed down, I tried to make up time by taking as few breaks as possible. I finished lap 52, 73.2 miles (around 74 miles on my COROS), just past the 24-hour mark. Words cannot express how demoralizing slowing down to this extent becomes with so much time and ideally distance left. As I kept moving in an awkard form to minimize pain, distracting myself as long as the hurt did not significantly exacerbate, I got reconnected to another kind and humble woman who too was struggling. Seeing that we were walking equally slowly, we decided to proceed together until I reached 100 miles. We exchanged stories, but both of us were too exhausted to speak much. She needed sleep and we parted ways after my lap 69, 97.2 miles, when I took another short break; we did run into each other again at my homestretch, where I had an opportunity to express my gratitude toward her sharing so much of my most difficult mileage with me. When I resumed, with two more laps to 100 miles, I ambitiously planned to log in four loops consecutively, which seemed feasible after the first but not so after the second based on the excruciating pain in my right leg and hip conquering the slightest incline that felt like Mount Everest. The lengthy asphalt portions of the course and the smallest hills I initially did not even notice later became insufferable. For this reason, after I reached 100 miles officially in 38:21:14.679 (my COROS hit 100 miles in 37:42:41.74), I decided to take a nap to see if I could recover sufficiently to add a couple of laps. As I lied down, I gave myself the possibility that the run is over. When I stood back up, not knowing how much I slept if at all, I felt rejuvenated just enough to keep going, and here, I told myself I would do two more laps and call it. My race came to an end after 73 laps and 102.831 miles, while my COROS reads 104.22 miles, in 41:48:46.189. Albeit I had more time, seeing how my body functioned, I could not justify resuming; taking another lengthy break to potentially be able to continue at an even slower pace would not have added that much to my mileage anyway. In silent darkness, I rang the PR bell to signify that I just ran my farthest distance to date.
PC: Paul Nielsen
Preparing for this race, I not only prayed for a successful run itself but also regarding the complexity of logistics and that my COROS would charge and last the entire event. I expressed to Jesus that I wanted to start focusing my life on something that has more impact on others instead of constantly searching for ways to fulfill my own selfish ambitions. After that shivering scare, I promised God that, once I finished this successfully, I would not participate in another multi-day race. I do not believe the event could have gone any more perfectly for me. I wanted to test my limits in my prime and at my peak shape now that I had so much more experience under my belt since my first 100+ miles, and I do not think I could have done or do any more than I did here. I will continue to run, for certain, but the days of putting my body under such prolonged stress and pain have come to a close. I thank and praise God for giving me the ability to embark on such a unique journey and His angels who guided me along the way. I cannot wait to witness what my Father has in store for me for 2024. Happy New Year!
My legs and feet post-race. I could barely move or put any weight.
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